Understanding

I don't know who you are anymore. I don't know why this is happening, I know you have your new world to explore, but i wanna be a part of it though.
We bonded so well but then you started pushing me away into a place i didn't want to be.
I know you have him now and that I understand that u want to share your life with him, but do you really have to push me away?
I don't understand why I said all those things behind your back when they weren't true, I guess it was because i was mad and hurt.
I am saying that I am sorry but thats all I am asking or you to say.
I love you and don't want you to screw up your life but i hope you can give me another chance and say that your sorry, and believe that its true by the voice of not being scared and not telling the truth and without having my disbelief's.
I know you have your new world to explore but i just wanna be a part of it though and I wanna be behind your back when u need me the most and a shoulder to cry on.But do u really have to be pushing me away in a to place i don't wanna be?

I would appreciate it if u submit a quote anout my poem cuz u know i am new to this. THANKS