Will The Pain Go Away?

I die slowly
But no one can see.
For I am dying within myself.
I try so hard to feel better and
Make myself good enough for them.
But it's never good enough,
I'm a terible person.
So ugly on the inside and outside.
Who should be hurt,
Or so they say.
So I'll make myself as ugly as I feel inside,
and show it on my wrists.
Maybe they will see and know that they don't have to hurt me,
For I am doing it myself.
But no
I deserve all of this pain,
It'll never go away.