Me

I'm a C average student
A normal kid
I'm a blond
So I'm perceived as stupid

But what you don't know
Is that I cry at night
And what you don't know
Is I take on this internal fight

Everyday I put on my smile
But I scream inside to be happy
Baby blue eyes carry tears
But all this you can't see

My hands shake
From the drugs and the blood
My soul is washed away
For the tears form floods

My spirit fades
I feel like I've been living for too long
Suicide rings in my head
Like it's my favorite song

My hearts in pieces
I've been treated like shit
The pain won't heal
But it been months since I was hit

But I still feel it
It's like a ticking bomb
I hope it explodes soon
Then I'll be finally gone

But for now I roam around
In this home that isn't sweet
It carries this scent that reminds me
Of neglect and being beat

I want to be alone
I wish to be free
But how can I become free
The person I hate is me…