I Wish For You Back

Opening up my puffy eyes
Again, I hear our goodbyes
Now, because all your lies
I'm drowned in my cries

A tainted love is what it was
I hate love for what it does
Now, I try to recover from a buzz
But I wish I was drinking, only because

Been a month and I'm still crying
I feel that without you, I'm dying
I hear my body sighing
From the drugs I've been buying

I gave you my all
Every night, waiting for you're call
I was there for the long haul
Now I wish I didn't fall

I feel so alone and cold
I long for you to hold
I wish I had been more bold
Instead I tried to fit your mold

In my mind, I'm so afraid
Holding this blood-drenched blade
I wish I hadn't been betrayed
I wish you had stayed…