Gone

I'm not writing about love
and I'm not writing about friends
I'm writing about my life
and how its going to end

I looked upon the future
and saw how I was going to die
It made my heart burn
it made me sad and cry

I was only the age of sixteen
when I took my life
I sat alone in the dark
as I slit my wrists with a knife

Now I know this boy named Corey
We've been together for a while
but as he told me he hated me
I began feeling great denial

Things at home weren't doing too well either
With my parents always fighting
It was a cold stormy day
wishing I just got struck by lightning

My family I will always love
and I will deeply miss
I'm sorry I treated my sisters so bad
When all they gave was lovingness

But.. I would take back all the lies
that my mother has told to me
I would want to show her
everything that I had to see

I wouldn't let my father, beat upon my mother
and I wouldn't let my mother
hurt upon another

I just want to tell you mommy
that I always loved you
that every time I said I love you
It was always true

I wouldn't blame myself
for every time I was alone
I wouldn't run away
from the only place I call home

I would change the fact
that I killed myself
because I thought I was not loved
I would change the fact that I am the one
who's so high up here above

I would change the fact
that I was dead
I would change the fact
that my parents buried me first ... instead..

I love my family
I love my friends
I will never see them
never again...

So here I say
so deep and true
that I am here
in the sky so blue..

oops things got moved around