Conversations with you are Useless

I wish I could be more but you'd still never care.
I needed you by my side but you were never there.
I'm stuck in this dream that'll never come true.
I spend my nights wishing I was there with you.

Conversations with you are useless,
You just like to act like you care.
You know I love you and that I care,
But you're pushing me away, it's just too much to bare.

It hurts for me to think that I once had you in my life,
That sometimes I stay up and cry all night.
You know that I'm in pain and so much strife,
But still I swear that I'm all right.

I just wanted for you to love me
Was that too much to ask?
Now I have to sit here and pretend that I'm happy,
Redo my face, paint on a happy mask.

I'm drowning in my fears
Can't you see?
I'm drowning in my tears
Won't you please rescue me?

I'm starting to choke, I can't breathe,
I guess that's just what you wanted from me.
My face in my pillow, slowly turning blue,
I hope you're happy, all of this was for you.