I'll Watch Them Try

People think that they can take away my self-injury,
By not letting me shut or lock my door.
Reading my letters and e-mails,
And sending me places where I get watched
But they have no idea.
I have to stop for me,
Not for them.
I have to be ready,
no one but me can make me ready.
I have to stop for myself and myself alone.
But I'll see them try to take away my pain killer.
For that's all I can do,
Since they don't listen to what I say.
So I'll sit here and watch...