If only you knew

I only wish that you could see,
What those few words meant to me.
I was ready to say goodbye,
And then forever close my eyes.

I wanted it to end for always,
I just wanted myself to die.

I was ready to press the knife,
To the pale skin of my wrists.
Not even my own parents,
Knew that I even exist.

I hated myself,
And everyone else as well.
I didn't care,
They all could go to hell.

But that way you spoke to me,
Almost like you cared.
Through those moments where I cried,
But also the meaningful ones we shared.

You were always there,
Through the thick and even the thin.
But then we suddenly grew apart,
I wish it always would have been.