Our own galaxy

I'm wasting my time,
i really need to find,
something real to rest my head on.
I'm always so depressed,
this life is what I detest,
i will until I am dead.
I miss you.
you are always in my head,
when I'm asleep in bed,
whenever I'm awake,
i dream of you instead.
it really hurts my heart,
whenever we're apart.
whenever we must part.
but the clock kept ticking,
hour after hour,
you were still on my mind,
with so much power.
why was I thinking of you?
why were you on my mind?
I'm not really sure,
the answers I want to find.
sometime during the night,
my thoughts were silenced,
and i dreamed of you.
i woke up in tears,
it felt so real,
my hands were shaking,
my pounding heart I could feel.
i dreamed that you left me all over again.
this time without my help,
and you left never wanting to see me again.
my heart also thought you left me,
but it was all a dream,
and as i sit here, i know there's only 199 days.
only 199 days left until I'm 16.
i sighed.
my heart started beating again.
the knot loosened in my stomach.
i could finally breathe.
but tonight i will dream again.
only this time, i will wake with laughter.
knowing that you never left me.
knowing that you're always with me,
in my heart. and that you're coming for me,
in less than 1,000 days.
so for now, kineta, ill keep counting.
ill match every day with a star.
that way, when I'm 18...
we'll have a galaxy of our own.
each, with its own unique story.