I want to leave,
walk out the door,
my soul needs to open,
and out to pour.
never stopping,
barely cautious,
slowly dripping,
without emotion.
quietly it flows,
through openings,
never before,
and the wounds,
have yet to heal.
even unintentional,
my tears flow,
i never thought,
that it would hurt like this.
deep inside my soul,
tearing away,
all that my sanity had claimed.
i dont want to weep,
to be afraid,
but i threaten myself,
that if i dont,
to me eternity will cling.
i scream,
through gritted teeth.
i want to quit,
to just forget,
but i cant,
because i yearn to know,
why you did it.
wondering how any living being,
can be capable of such brutality.
haven't they seen, the way i look?
i feel absolutely betrayed.
by the ones i hate.
the ones who i care for,
when you didnt.
how could you?
i dare ask,
for i doubt it will seem,
a serious task.
can't i break free?
become stronger than me?
the one i came used to seeing,
when every morning,
she would frown upon my face.
but its not fair,
to be in the middle,
the middle of life,
and death.
alone.
do i need to express why,
this life i do detest?
because i have nobody here,
to live it with.
