If only you knew the way you make me feel.
You make me feel like this is real.
The love, the passion, my one hearts desire.
You make me feel like I am on fire.
Yours eyes, your kiss.
Both of these in my dreams I miss.
I wake up crying,
Inside I feel like I am dying.
Your not next to me,
Your face I can not see.
Sometimes I wake up and see the dawn,
And I smile and then notice that your gone.
Sometimes I wonder what life would be like without you here..
Then in my eyes I feel a warming tear.
You don't understand why I won't admit
But its all because I can't commit.
You see when I was a little girl about my daughters age,
I was 6 er 7 when my dad came in, in a rampage.
I wondered what I did wrong.
He said he hated me for so long.
I was scared when he threw me on the bed.
Then a little bad verse I remember he read.
“I am going to get you no matter what you do!”
“All because I hate you I hate YOU!”
He screamed louder and louder as his voice grew fierce.
Through me I felt a pierce.
My own father did this to me...
Now I can not commit can't you see.
I have been beaten and bruised,
Sexually abused.
My daddy was my first.
Since then I have been cursed.
Now I let no man go near her.
So now nothing like that to her can occur.
I am tortured everyday with this fear.
Everytime I think about it I feel a tear.
But my fear has to leave.
And from you, your love I must receive.
I will say yes to the question you ask.
For me and my daughter I must fulfill this task.
