Confusion

Life, It has its ups..and downs
Or at least mine does
I thought about life, death
pain, pleasure
darkness, light
guys, girls
wanted, unknown
all things I can never choose from
For instance
me trying to choose to be me...good
or what my shell is becoming... evil
darkness, despair
they both have there pluses and minuses
good: innocent, family, closeness...all things I'm losing
evil: wild, fun, being different... almost too much
welcome to my confusion
your reading this, hearing it
does it confuse you
or can you just let go
this is my constant confusion
stuck in between both of all worlds
being pulled, while I'm pushing
stumbling, tumbling into an endless void
of unknowing... welcome to my world, my life
you ask whats so confusing
imagine ... seeing a light in a dark void
going to it only to find...
its gone, completely out of sight
oh wait... whats that... where'd it go again
you never reach that light
never know what it really is
thinking you have something,
then it disappears
thats my life
my confusion
so don't ask how I am,
cause you know...
confusion

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