Both sides of life

Life is a game
one that cannot be won
life causes pain
and temptation to use the gun

it is not fair
to be alive
with no one to care
and no reason to strive

my soul has spoken
and my will has been broken
my live is falling apart
like my shattered heart

so is it half empty or is it half full?
should i let go or should i continue to pull?
Ive tried so hard to get through it all
but in the end i always fall.