Please Daddy, Don't

A yell from downstairs I hear it so clear,
This is the yell that I most fear,
I hide in my room hoping he stays there,
Why does he do this? Doesn't he care?

I hear footsteps coming up the stairs,
He comes in my room,
And as usual pulls my hair.

I shout "DADDY, WHAT HAVE I DONE?"
"WHY DO YOU DO THIS? IS IT SO MUCH FUN?"
You tell me to shut up,
And tell me not to winge,
I look at your face,
And I see that dirty grin.

Mommy doesn't know,
He does it when she's not home,
I don't want her to be upset,
But I feel so very lonesome.

I tell you to leave me alone,
And that I don't want you to do this no more,
I try to run to the phone,
But I trip and fall to the floor.

You pick me up and carry me back,
You throw me on my bed,
And you say I deserve a smack,
I cry "Daddy, please don't do this to me",
"It hurts real bad; can't you see?"
My heart starts to race,
As I feel another blow to my face.

Mommy's not home,
And I can't reach the phone,
Somebody help me please,
Daddy you're making my heart freeze.

He tells me to lie down,
And tells me not to make a sound,
My heart is pouncing; I am full of fear,
Daddy stop making me shed all these tears.

He takes his clothes off as he lies next to me,
You're breaking my heart Daddy; can't you see?
He touches me there where he always does,
Now I wish I'd die; I really wish I would,
I close my eyes and hope for it to quickly end,
I can't hack this pain; I want my life to take an end.

Later in the evening he is sat downstairs,
I think of all he's done the last few years,
It hurts so bad and it just isn't fair,
He doesn't love me; he doesn't even care.

I take out the knife in my bedroom drawer,
I slit my wrists and I fall to the floor,
I can see the blood and I can feel the pain,
In a minute it will be over,
And I no longer have to feel the tears run down my face like rain.

My eyes are getting heavy,
I can hardly hear a thing,
I see a bright light,
And I hear angels sing,
I feel no more pain and I feel so free,
Though I'm gonna miss Momma so much,
And she's going to miss me.