I spoke with my heart, but still no reply.

Came to see you
today.

I talked to you..but
not really.

You never did say
anything back.

No advice.

No lecture.

I wish I could have
at least that.

I spoke to your
tombstone marked with
words I felt were true..

Here you lie..in the
ground, never to utter
another word..never to
utter another sound.

Talking of all the
times we had
shared brought me to
tears even after all
these years.

How I want them back
still after so many years.

I was hoping you would
give me some sign..

Some kind of hope.

Nothing came so I just
spoke to the closest
thing to you that I could.

Hoping that you could hear
me.

Though I knew you couldn't,
knew you wouldn't.

I asked if you still
remember our promise.

I told you ,or tried to
through tears that I still
do,and always will.

But it's still hard to make
it through.

I always wanted to know
how you could expect me
to be happy.

When you're in the
soft soil beneath my feet.

You could say I still can't
get passed the fact that
you weren't unbreakable.

Like I once thought.

Maybe it's the fact that,
you were my soul-mate.

Maybe it's because I
can't forget you in any
way.

I went to see you today.

Spoke with my heart words
I never said while you were
alive.

I hoped you could hear me.

Just give me a sign.

But no nothing, no reply.

I came and visited you
today.

I spoke with my heart
but got no reply.

This is dedicated to James, I still miss yew so much