Not a dang soul cares when my **** life gets harder.
I'm just as useless as a matter.
Richard i loved u and i still do.
I just wish u could forgive me for tearing your heart in two.
I'm sorry i know what i did was wrong.
I didn't mean to make u cry the night before the 29th.
I didn't know it was gonna turn out this way.
I should have never gone.
I didn't know what to say the next day when he said u give good hand jobs.
Upside down icicles drip turn my life inside out. This is the start of my tears of ice.
I started crying tears of ice.
I knew i had to tell u.
I just didn't know how to tell u without breaking your heart in two.
I lost the one thing i held dear to my heart.
you were the only thing keeping me alive
and now we are apart.
A blood streaked face its time to set my sword.
Place the blade upon my flesh.
I'm a worthless ******* *****.
How could i do something like that to such a sweet guy?
I thanked god for him every single night.
All he ever did was tell me how he loved me with all his heart.
How beautiful i was.
How we would be together forever.
Then i had to turn around and **** it up all i'm a worthless ******* *****.
Whoever said life is the greatest thing god created is a bunch of bull ****.
Cause I'm ****ed up more than my life is.
Everyone always said i would be better of dead.
My parents never wanted me.
Was i just a consequence of what they did in the dark?
Now I'm being blamed for living.
I cut myself to feel the pain
the pain in which keeps me sane.
The shad of my soul is tattered and burnt.
I'm a ***** for a razor kiss.
The blood trickling through my tightly clenched fist
it's not fare what i did to you and that is why i must die.
It's not fare to stay alive
I'm not happy being me so when you see me lying their bleeding and not breathing leave me be.
Life is a disease and death is the cure.
I thought i was gonna marry you but not anymore.
I turn on my video camera and tell you how much I'm sorry.
I'll be with you in your heart forever and always.
I dont deserve someone like you you'll find the one the perfect one.
It might take some time but shes out their waiting for you and shell never tear your heart in two.
I run into my kitchen and grab a knife and now I'm scared.
But everyone will be better off when I'm dead.
I slowly start to take some pills.
I fear this wont work.
So i plunge the knife into my soul.
I feel the pain it hurt.
The phone starts to ring.
Richard is on the phone
He says
baby it wasn't your fault.
I love u to much to let u go.
I start to cry he asks me why I'm crying.
I tell him I'm dieing.
He starts to cry and ask me why baby why?
I just remembered i left the video camera on.
But i have no strength to turn it off.
Richard i guess u have to watch me...(cough) (cough)......I love you goodbye!
This poem is written to Richard i'm sorry and i love you!
