And wonder

I sit at night and wonder
why i let him go
if he will ever come back to me
i guess I'll never know

i sit at night and wonder
about the tests i take this year
about the pressure that I'm under
i draw another tear

i sit at night and wonder
about my only friend
she gets to me sometimes
she drives me round the bend

i sit at night and wonder
about the people I'm forced to know
why they hurt me so much
why they wont leave me alone

i sit at night and wonder
about why my family doesn't care
they treat me like I'm worthless
yet they'd miss me if i weren't there

i sit at night and wonder
about the pain of all I've said
as i watch the blood trickle down my wrist
and wish that i was dead