I'm Sorry Mommy

Mommy I love you
To bad you don’t feel the same
I’m not the girl you wanted
In this world I can’t remain

Mommy we agree on something
Our wishes are alike
We both wish I were never born
So I take my life tonight

Mommy you said it
I heard you loud and clear
You said you regretted having me
And wish I would disappear

Mommy you screamed it
On the top of your lungs
That you wished for another little girl
That I wasn’t the one

Mommy you looked at me
And said it to my face
That I’m an awful little child
Your biggest disgrace

Mommy I cried
Like I never had before
Cause I’m not what you wanted
I’m not the girl you can adore

Mommy I hate myself
Just like you hate me to
I’m the worst little girl ever
It’s getting hard to continue

Mommy I’m going to make you happy
I’m going to slit my wrists
If anyone ever asks
You can pretend I didn’t exist

Mommy I won’t make a mess
In fact I’ll go outside
In my secret little corner
Where I always go to hide

Mommy I love you
This is my goodbye
Every year you can celebrate
The day that I died

Mommy I hope you’ll be happy
You can build a new world
Where you can have what you wanted
Including that perfect little girl

By. Luz Ramirez

* This poem is about my and my mom's relationship. As you can tell we have the worst one like imaginable. At times i feel like doing what is expressed in this poem esp today after everything she said. I don't know why I don't. Anything to make Mommy happy*