Wanted Suicide (revised)

I changed some words since someone pointed out that they just didn't fit in...

Looking at that knife
Its just so tempting to take my life
Nothing to stop me
No one to see
Should I end it now?
Or leave starvation as my vow?
No I'll die slowly in pain
Nothing to lose, nothing to gain
I will wait, until the day I decay
In this world that seems so gay

I am a very negative person
And each day, my attitude seems to worsen
Family to me is just a word
To them,anyone other then me is preferred
OfcourseFriends do not exist
That's why I have these scars on my wrist

Right now, I'm about to break
When my mom gave birth to me
She made a huge mistake
And that's a guarantee I seem to do everything wrong
Like I'm not supposed to belong

Someone had just opened the door
Now my thoughts are in store
For tomorrow when I am all alone...
Maybe I'll go through with it
Whether or not I do...
Is of the unknown

This is a poem I wrote for a special someone...

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