Erase

So much that can’t be erased,
Not even time can make it go away.
So much I hold inside,
Things I wish I could say.

Your face fades from my mind,
As I close my eyes.
Sitting cold and lonely,
No one hearing my silent cries.

I force myself out of this,
But it keeps pulling me back.
Its like my every move,
Someone’s been keeping track.

I’m so confused,
So much around me to realize.
Someone please tell me the truth,
I hate hearing all these lies.

I shut away my feeling,
I need something real to believe in.
It’s too late now,
I’m already dead within.

If only you could see,
How I’m hurting inside.
Why’d this have to be me,
There’s so much of me I have to hide.

I don’t know how much longer,
That I can go on.
I won’t give in to you,
Because I know I’m not wrong.

Why couldn’t I see the signs,
How did I miss it all.
It doesn’t matter anymore,
I’ve already taken the fall.

I wish I could explain to you,
How I really feel.
I’m searching inside for the right words,
For something that’s real.