I sit at home
and cry myself to sleep
for me it helps to deal with this pain in my heart
i miss him so much
he was such a good guy
why did he have to go?
WHY GOD WHY!!?!?!?!?!?!?
no one deserves to die so young
and no one deserves to have to feel the pain that i felt on that day that you took him from us
even though its been a month
i still cant stand to say his name
every time i hear about that day my eyes fill with tears
why am i not OK by now
i guess i took it harder than i thought
I'm just trying to be strong for my best friend
because now shes all Ive got
i know shes got it harder than i do and thats why I'm so scared for her
she misses him more than anything
seeing one of you greatest friend lying in a bed
with his eyes open and not being able to look at you is the hardest thing to do
i had never had to say goodbye to someone so dear to me
i think thats why I'm taking it so hard
i need help cant you see
its about time i admitted it
Ive needed it for a while but i don't want to talk and bring that horrible day back to life
i want to just leave it in the past
i don't want to forget but i want to get it out of my head
its driving me insane and i cant handle it trying to be strong for my sister is so hard for me cuz how can i be strong for her when i cant even be strong for myself
well i guess its time that i call someone or maybe just sit down to talk
than maybe that day will go away like they say you have to crawl before you can walk.......
