My thoughts: (free writing)

I don't think words could describe, the pain I feel right now.
The best thing that ever happened to me, has broken my heart.
he said he needed to figure some things out first.
I understand, but why did he have to wait until I was so attached to him?
I take it back, I don't understand.
whatever he needed to figure out, he could have done with me right there by his side.
That was what my role was, so why didn't he let me play it?
I'm supposed to help him through the hard times, and he is supposed to help me.
we are supposed to work through things together.
But we didn't.
why didn't he want it that way?
He said we could still talk and he'd always be there if i needed to talk, and that he still loved and cared about me.
I hate my parents.
its all their fault.
they are the ones that made us not be able to see each other forever.
maybe thats why
it was hard for him to deal with all of this stuff and then not be able to see me as well.
but he was still able to call me...
we could still talk about things over the phone.
its just not the same without him
and it never will be.
I told him to call me when he was ready to be together, and when he got everything sorted out.
he said he would.
I believe him
because I believe in us.

this is just my thinking process, after what happened; sorry if it bored you, but would you plz still vote and comment? thanks