Daddy's love

My days are short and my nights are long
My souls on earth, but heaven is where it belongs
I don't want to be here, in this dreadful place
But I can't take my on life; it would be a disgrace
Will I go to hell if I do it myself?
One single step as I fall to my death
Or a slash of the wrist will that be too much
Or a pull of the trigger with one single touch
Oh my life's been terrible since the day I was born
When my so-called dad touched me,
Was the day I was scorned
I wanted him to die for that
Why'd he have to do that to me?
When all I tried to be is what he wanted me to be
He made my life miserable, and I hated him for that
He told me it wasn't him but the high from the crack,
But know that I'm older I'm still feeling the pain
That's why I want to die; I have so much to gain
I sit in the dark having thoughts of this
Thinking to myself will I ever be missed?
With this gun is the only way
Only one shot will end my day.
I have to write a letter that's the only way they'll here me
Just to explain why this had to be.

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