Demons

These demons are all inside of me
trying to make me something I don't want to be,
they've taken over my life
got me sitting her holding a knife,
why can't they just be gone
I'd give anything for them to leave me alone,
they tell me to kill myself I should be dead
I try to close my eyes and look to God instead ,
He's not helping, why is he doing this to me
you promised they'll go away
why'd you fu@king lie to me,
what did I ever do to you
why couldn't all my dreams come true,
why couldn't I meet that beautiful bride
so she could bring me joy inside,
how could my life end up like this
I wonder when I'm gone
will I ever be missed,
killing myself is the only thing left to do
I want to be with my brother
so we can start over new,
so mom, dad I'm sorry for this
I really do apologize,
I thought you would have notice by now
all you had to do was look in my eyes,
you would have seen the pain I felt
maybe you could have told me why
I was dealt the hand I was dealt,
and why God ignored me ever night when I whelp
why did he have to take my twin away
when I begged on my knees for him to stay
somebody can you please help me
for know is the time for me to leave
to all my family and friends have no sorrow,
for this is my last day, no more tomorrow

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