They were to blame

Rain pouring down hard
thunder crashing shaking the ground
she just cant take any more
grabbing pen paper and a knife she slams her door
knifes beside her laying on the bed
writing as the words come to her head
she lays the note on her night stand
tossing it in the air and rolling it in her hand
take me home i don't belong here
thrusts the knife into her chest out slips a tear
she pulls it out and lets it fall
writing I'm sorry in blood on her wall
hitting the ground her life slowly fading away
kneels down and strokes her face stay with us help is on the way
shes sees a light as the siren noise fades
its not raining now shes under a tree waiting in the shade
open arms at last its a real love not another lie
running toward him going home at last he'll never say goodbye
nothing they can do shes left this world behind
they don't understand why with her they were blind
lightning flashes they find the note and this is what they see
Dear mom, dad, grandy, papa, god, anyone that cares about me,
if your reading this which i hope you will
then you know i aimed to kill
I'm really sorry it happened like this
i tried my best but i couldn't take no more I'm tired of always being pissed
this was the only option left for me
cant you see this had to be
i tried to work my problems out
but in the end they got worse and y'all would just shout
my heart was broke many a times
bruised physically and mentally as i went down the line
when i needed help no one had time to spare
so no matter what y'all think you weren't really there
you never saw the pain and anger on my face
but its all OK now cause I'm with god in a better place
ill be watching over you everyday
so don't worry i promise y'all will be OK
i want you to know i love each and everyone of you
and I'm sorry for everything bad i did too
please tell my baby and my friends i love them and I'm sorry i had to go
for all of you be strong and love everyone don't dwell on the past live for the present and the future
this is my suicide letter and i thought y'all should know
ending with much love and her name
they realized they were to blame