From The Heart

I'm tired of smiling
I'm sick of causing pain
I'm thinking while I'm crying
that this must be a game

or maybe it's a dream
and maybe it's not real
but then I realize that long ago
I lost my sense to feel

emotions of long ago
came flooding through my eyes
you weren't the only one
with no one to hear your cries

I have no reason to think
that it'll be okay
but now I hear you loved me
and I don't know what to say

what I did was wrong
it hurt you, scarred you deep
sometimes you're acting strong
but then that mask slips and you're weak

forgiveness is forgotten, lost
and the blame is all on me
another portal opened
to the hell that lives in me