Lifeless

I open my eyes
and theres a lot of people around me
i can hear them
they even talk to me
but i don't listen them
I'm lost in the darkness
in theory i am alive
i keep breathing
and my heart keeps beating
but right now
my life has no meaning
I'm trapped between two worlds
trying to make a choice
do i wanna keep like this
or will be the weakness
the only one who lives?

I can see your flesh
you can see mine
you can prove that i live
but you cant prove if I'm alive
you can see my cuts
but you cant see my scars
you can see my body
but you cant see me
theres no me
my body is a image
of what i used to be

when the life became nothing?
when i became so worthless?
in which point of my life my life went away?
just leaving blood and flesh
crawling in the misery
begging for meaning
crawling in the emptiness
just waiting for anything
feeling nothing
but feeling everything
you can stop my breathing
and you can stop my beating
but you cant kill me
CZ I'm already dead

that happy kid
is not here anymore
don't lose your time
looking for him
CZ he's already gone
your f.u.c.k.i.n.g. cold world
kill him long time ago
and all that he left
was a f.u.c.k.i.n.g. numb