Not you, not now, not anymore

You never see the good in someone until they die, fade away, disappear…

So I suggest you take a good look at your family and loved ones, look at the good points in them

Because unlike you I can’t anymore, they have been very disappointed in me, in anything I do, in anything I do , in anything I didn’t do.

I’m not like her, my mother who always wanting to be top in everything, well for me, I didn’t want to be first in everything as badly as her but I still wanted what she did, but because I don’t say it to her she gets angry that I didn’t turn out like her, what she dosen’t know that I don’t want to turn out like my mother no, not her…