Worries

I look in the mirror and think "Is that girl me?"
I am pale and sad.
Who is that girl with the worry lines?
I think "If I died would he care?"
I just wanna know!
The voices tell me, "Pick up the knife, just do it! He doesn't care!"
My own family thinks it's an act,
A little play.
I am depressed now and suicidal thoughts fill my head real quick!
Is today the day?
The day I do pick up that knife and end it all?
Make the madness stop!
Make the voices go away!
I have a broken heart...
Oh no!
Can they see it through my mask?
I fake the smiles and happiness..
Can you see the real me?
Can anyone?
Am I me?