Emotions Desturbed

Destroyed with anger, lies betrayal,lost love,
destroyed by everything.

you never listened,
you never cared.
emotions disturbed
twisted mind with dark thoughts of a wishfully death with my sister by heart by my side, for she also has a wishful death.

people afraid to be my friend,
guys are afraid to love me
you messed up my life
you made me a screw up
you could off prevented this life i live by listen to me

you all say I'm fine
but why don't you listen to this lost confused little girl and you'll find out I'm messed, I'm no more dieing in side i am dead, I'm a twisted, a lost cropped soul...
I'm not fine

I'm black hearted,
I feel nothing, I'm full of hatred and a pointless life, violent I am, i try to fake feelings so i can try to fix things, maybe be loved! but so far it isn't working i want to just FEEL! more then anything.

I feel like I'm ruined forever, like i can never be fixed. You look into my eyes and all you see is an icy cold stare....