Lost in confusion

I’m lost in confusion I don’t know what to do every day and every night I think about you wondering why I can’t think straight I just want to get by the loneliness I feel inside makes me just want to cry when I hear all the rumors I want to grab a knife next time I hear them I’m not going to think about it twice all I really want is some one to treat me right I miss the days we used to share now its like you don’t even care about any thing in my life you never ask me how my day was anymore obviously you don’t even care I used to think it was love that we shared but I was wrong it’s not at all love it’s practically friendship with something on the side sometimes I just feel like trying to run and hide the emptiness I feel within my heart makes me feel like were falling a part all I know is that you’ll always be in my heart it says that I love you but yet I listen to my head oh well screw it that is all I said my head is wrong and my heart is right but I can’t live like this so lets work things out either you do or you don’t want to be with me so it is time to decide if you love me or not because I am lost in confusion and don’t know when not to hide. I am so alone and scared you just have me confused. So now are you just going to leave me with a broken heart and a different perspective of everything an then go behind my back again I think that it is time to say good bye boy. Stop trying to push me deeper I think I am in way too deep now with all this confusion going on.