What Would Happen?

I'm sorry to all that I'm so awful, I just sit here and think of all the things I do wrong, and can't help to wonder what would life be like if I were gone. Would anyone even care or would anyone even know? Would my friends miss me? Would my family even know I wasn't here? Would you miss me, or just not care like my fears? If I were gone this world would be better. If I were gone no one would have to worry about what was the matter with me? If I were gone you could just not even care and I would never get mad. Am I such an awful person, for wanting one thing in my life. Alls I want in this world is for people to care!