What nobody knows

I cry a tear
It falls to the ground
It shatters and breaks
I can't hear a sound

It's all in slow motion
I can see it fall
But I'm frozen
I can't move at all

I can't hear
and I can barely see
There's so many tears
It all becomes blurry

I can see my hand
And what it holds
The truth and pain
That this razor beholds

I can see it cute
But I can't move it away
I'm numb to the pain
As I wake up each day

I see the blood
It starts to run
I drop the blade
My job is done

I behold scars
That no one can see
I feel the pain
Inside of me

I hide the scars
With many ways
Yet no matter what
They always stay

The mirror a constant reminder4
Of all the pain I feel
And after all these years
I still don't think it's real

The tears and blood
Begin to mix
They come from pain
I cannot fix

The room starts to spin
As I lay on the floor
I'm used to the chills
I've had them before

I begin to drift away
As my eyes begin to close
Once again hiding
What nobody knows

I wake to a shouting voice
It's time for me to go
Another day of hiding secrets
That no one else will know...

copyright-Jessie 2004 Nov. 2