My Friends

For my three idols, i wish i was more like them.

My friends sit and cry and i don't know why,
No one tells me anything anymore,
I feel so stupid, so wrapped up in myself,
I need thrown in the garbage, put back on the shelf,
I love them so much but they don't tell me,
When they are feeling down, on my own i can't see,
The one who puts others before themselves is all of them,
Not me, i will burn in hell,
So wrapped up in my own depression, i can't see past it, need taught a lesson,
Need given a mask to hide my cries, so i can put others first and help their lives,
They all hide their fears, to stop and help me,
But, they don't tell me theirs, why can that be?
They don't want help? Not if it's from me!
They think i cant take it?
But i want to be able to give back what they've given in,
To be able to rise to help just like they've risen,
I need a head check cause I'm doing it again,
Letting go of my broken mask, setting free my depression.

This isn't as good as it could be i no but i needed to get my feelings out. I'm ashamed of feeling like it now tho.

*All comments and votes greatly apprecaited as always.*