The Barbed Wire

When I stare around me
The barbed wire's in my way
It's making me lose myself
Making my mind stray.

It's cutting up the insides of me
Tearing my heart in two
The barbed wires stopping me
It's not letting me through.

To get to the other side
Thats all I'm wanting now
There must be a way
I will achieve somehow.

Well I accomplished my desire
I got to the other side
It took my guts to do
It was a scary ride.

I took the pills when my folks were out
Then gently swallowed one by one
It wasn't that bad to be honest
It didn't feel wrong.

I was barely alive when my mum got home,
I can remember the look on her face
It was a look of hatred
It was a look of disgrace.

She took me to the hospital
I didn't want to be saved
I whispered to my mum
Please start digging my grave.

They tried but I was stronger
I didn't let them win
I had taken too many pills for them
To just kill away my sins.

So now I'm on the other side
The barbed wire is destroyed
And my mum has forgotten about me
My name is now void.

~ Jenni ~