Warmth

The knife slides
the gun fires
my blood spills
on the floor

the pain is
subsiding as the
warmth surrounds me
as does the pool of blood

was I right to do
this or was I wrong
about the way you felt
should I have lived a lie

my choice was
made I wish I
knew how you felt
now I lay here wondering

please forgive me
for I didn't know
I can't take it back
just ask forgiveness

I lost my chance
all of it now
buried separate
shunned from life

what drove me to
these lengths I
can't be sure all
I knew is I am sorry

for this mistake
the life of a
human God
won't forget

He will shun me
He will not allow
me to return for
I have sinned

I have done
the unthinkable
I have taken
an innocent life

I cannot rewind
I cannot change
I have sinned
and shall suffer

never to see
again never to
live gone
shunned for my sin

life was precious but wasted on
me I only wish
that I could have changed

my life my body
now gone in a heap
on the floor in
a pool of blood

how
how could I have done this
taken
taken my own life

I am no longer
deserving of a
second chance and
shall not rise again.