Pain

Her emotions hidden.. to her parents, she`s a discrase
she lives in misery, without showing her face
never have i heard her utter a single word
remaining silent, her opinions are always deferred

no one else seems to notice her, but i've seen her before
she has once attempted to speak, but never anymore
everyone sees right through her, like she isn't even there
this girl.. i think i've met her before, but i have no clue to where

the child is always by herself, forever all alone
her eyes are wet, her mouth remains shut, but her knowledge is a lot greater than my own
for she knows better of what actions do, and how much it hurts others to betray
she learns so much from all of the inevitable torture she feels every second of everyday

before i barely saw her, like she was only pretend
why i felt as if only i noticed her, i could not comprehend
as time went by, i started to notice this being more and more
as if she wanted to tell me something, that i did not know before

now i finally know why she seems to follow me,
and why she is a being that only i can see . .
for, this suffering girl is named "pain" . .
and she has, and always will, be a major apart of me

she comes everytime you laugh at me, and she`s there everytime i cry
it is HER you see, everytime, i tremble and tell you how much i want to die
she is the girl that was walking by herself yesterday . . that no`1 seemed to see
when you thought that i was sad because of a broken heart, that was her you saw, not me

Pain takes over everytime my parents call me a piece of shit. .
she is always there when my mother yells at me, and tells me i am not even worth spit
this inhuman character becomes who i am when my wishes don`t seem to come true
when my dreams are stepped upon, and when my heart breaks because of you . .

please make pain go away . . and please don`t let me see her anymore
she is such an evil existence that i fear i cannot ignore
the more people hurt me, the more she comes to life
and the more she takes over me, the more i want to reach for a knife

i fear of the suicide that might occur,
because into HER. . i have grown
please save me from this monstrous creature
and help me realize, that . . i`m not alone