The phone rings.. and i don't even care.. if its not you i don't want to talk... i wish you would call me.. just one last time.. just so i could hear your voice be for i let you go.. be for i let everyone go... oh well.. i cant blame you for hateing me after this. i just wish i could make it rite.. i swear to you i would never mess up again.. i would keep you forever if you just gave me one last chance.. i know i said no one can save me.. but what i really meant was no one can save me but you... so... no one can save me... i wish you would hold me just one last time... wrap me tight up in your arms... so no emotion can harm me... so i wont have to cry.. why did i walk at that day... i cut our time short... and the worst part of leaving... was knowing you weren't going to follow.. i wish you would have jumped up off that couch.. and grabbed on to me and asked me to stay... but you just watched your show.... i was crying.. and you didn't even care... maby you did.... but now you don't... i called you yesterday.. but you didn't want to talk. now as i sit alone.. contemplating on rather my life is important enough to carry on thought the darkness.. fighting the rumors and pain is getting too hard... the reputation thats been handed to me is not mine.. i don't deserve it... i wish i could move.. get away... but i cant run from myself.. everyone has brainwashed me.. made me believe i am everything I'm not. Ive given up on my dreams... on my life. i don't want to exist anymore... I'm just scared of what comes after this..
