Self Inflicted Pain Without the Knife

I guess I'm the only one to blame
For the way this all worked out
I treated this like a game
Didn't think I'd fall in love

But now your gone and I have to deal
With the tears that constantly fall
I just can't help the way I feel
If I could then I'd choose not to love

I want to forget you and move on
I have to let you go somehow
I missed the train and now your gone
Now I'm waiting for another to come

It's like a knife has cut my heart
I did this to myself
My hearts been torn apart
Your not completely to blame

I didn't take a chance
I'm not that type of girl
Not the first to get up and dance
But I'm starting to change

I'm different now if only you'd see
Stronger and wiser then before
But there's one thing you can't see
This self inflicted pain stays with me