Thanksgiving...

Thanksgiving day...11:20pm

- On bed..razor in her hand...she cant think straight...emotions all mixed....

11:21pm

-Razor is put to her skin...reasons for each cut..listed below..

1.Shes means..shes cold..everyone hates her
2.Family is in debt...she feels guilty about asking for too much..
3.Failing school..she cant seem to wanna care..she never turns anything in..
4.Cant seem to get happy..she doesn't know whats wrong...
5.She just keeps hurting the one she loves most..why cant she just let it go..why cant she just say whats really inside..shes still in love with him..
6.She knows he deserves better...she cant seem to make him see
7.Shes making him feel like its his fault..when really its hers....
8.Its her fault shes like this..why cant she be normal...

11:25pm

- Cleans her cuts...pulls down her sleeve...no one can see.. good..her secrets safe...she hopes he doesn't find out....and if he does...she hopes he wont follow in her footsteps...she hopes hell still love her...

11:30

- Ferdog69m signs in...her hearts skips a beat...she doesn't move..doesn't click to say i love you...

11:30.5 sec

- Ferdog69m signs off...its too late..her heart falls..its better this way...she really does love him..she hopes he sees...but how can he...she wont let it show....

Everything just seems to be getting worst...thanksgiving is supposed to make a person feel happy...yet its making her feel mixed....the one person she loves the most is gone...maybe just for the night..maybe forever...its all her fault...all her fault because she wont let allow herself to forget...