I don't know

I'm not sure what I'm feeling
it could be right or wrong
I'm not sure if I'm ready
or neither if I'm strong
i think I'm coming round though
i think i understand
even though i want you there
i know you're not my man
i can't seem to touch you
without shedding a tear
even when i see you
i pretend you're not here
but fair enough it had to end
and you do not want me back
but shouldn't i feel better now
or am i simply slack
i know you do not love me now
and you used me from the start
and i have come to terms with that
and the fact you broke my heart
i have gave a lot of time
for my heart to heal
then why the hell ain't it fixing
I'm so not sure what i feel