My Reason, Your words!

If only one thing to go back and say,
Id only say one thing,
If there was one reason to kill myself,
It has always been you.
Your the reason I've been dead for so long.
I hate everything about you.
Since we've grown apart,
you want to never be part of me ever again.
So am i mad inside? Yes!
so am i suicidal? Yes!
Only because of you!
Out of the lies and the lowest
shall I make you have most regret!
Shall I make you repay the dues,
of the utmost pain!
Shall so I give back what you have given me!
And to all of this shall I always stand to!
And to that is all who I am.