Lying to my self..

Why do I not see the light
When they keep saying it'll be alright
I try to understand
To see what they see
But it does no good
I never thought it would

Music to my ears
The sound of the screams
The children are dying
Why am I still lying
To myself again

For so long I've tried
To be good enough for you
But it doesn't seem to matter anymore
Because I'm still lying
Yeah I'm still lying
To myself again