I Have to Tell You Something

Here comes that feeling
The one of confusion and doubt
Life no longer seems appealing
When I can't stop thinking about

The pain that it has caused me
The torture that I've beared
My loyal friends can't see
The truth I haven't shared

The decision to discuss what happend
Was so difficult to make
But I could no longer pretend
That I hadn't made a mistake

And if they want to know
What I did what has been done
I will calmly whisper, "I don't know"
My explanation has begun

I'll wait a few seconds more
Then sigh and try to begin
"These feelings I ignore
Just build up within"

Your confused and worried look
Asks if it was your fault
Are you wondering what it took
To bring on this assault?

My answer wasn't clear
I can tell from your concerned eyes
My own are glimmering from the tears
They stream down by surprise

It's not an easy thing to do
To confess your mistakes in life
But it is critical to tell you
Why I cut myself with a knife.