I need you God *kinda sad*

I can't see you in all this
You're invisible to me
I've been alone for so long now
It's going to be hard to let you back in
I like leaving you out
It's good to say I am in control
But I realized I can't do it alone
I need you now
I can't go on without you
Don't you see I'm falling here?
Can you not tell I'm dying in a world of my own misery?
Come on God, pick me up
I think if I fall an inch further I will be gone, lost in the blackness, dead.