Help me!

I need a normal teenage life,
not one filled with pain.
i want to be a normal girl,
not have days covered by rain.

i need everyone to understand,
exactly how i feel.
that everything is so unfair,
i wish this wasn't real.

i cant take screaming shouting swearing,
i need to share my fears,
and concentrate on life,
i dont care about my peers.

i need to stop and think of me,
i need to sort out my head,
i need to stop resorting ot the knife,
or i'm going to end up dead

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