No One Could Understand

No one could understand

No one understands
Like it's their own choice
Like it doesn't change a thing
To raise my own voice

It's not like it's my own decision
Like it's my own life
As if their opinion mattered
As if it was their knife

I try to pretend
Like everything just fine
I keep telling myself
Tomorrow the sun will shine

I just want to go away
To maybe make a smile
To not have to lie
To make waking up worth the while

I want to run away
Just to understand
But no one understands
As if they gave a damn

Maybe if I slit myself
Or pop a couple pills
Maybe if I fall asleep
This reality won't be real

But no one understands
I wish they just knew
If I died today
Maybe their dream would come true

It's not like it's MY life
As if they even cared
It's not like it's my feelings
That don't even want me to share

If I told just one person
Maybe things would get OK
But, see, I've told several people
And they hurt me more and more each day

I've tried to sleep it off
Maybe that I won't wake up
But after I awake
Things just get more *ucked

But today is today
and Tomorrow is Tomorrow
Who is to say
That the fading won't fade the sorrow

I'll just keep pretending
I'll just hold it all inside
Besides what is left
But my whole life to hide