If only they knew

If only they knew
if only they could see
what i am going through
what its like to be me

the constant pain
always wanting to cry
I'm so ashamed
i want to die

i wish you all could see
this is just an act
this isn't really me
my death is near - thats a fact

i dyed my hair black
to show how i feel
people turning their heads,
this life isn't me

got a sharpener blade,
and cut out all the pain
life hasn't changed,
its still the same

when i am dead
i want you to know
that i lived in dread,
have nothing to show