A varied life some might say
There have been lots of changes along the way
All but some seemed normal to I
Yet but now, even I ask why
Always wanting to succeed the rest
Constantly fighting to be the best
Not caring what it takes to be number one
Yet it is I who has become outdone
Outdone by myself - my thoughts, my fears
Unnoticed by I for years and years
That the constant battle, struggle and fight
Has not been with them but with my own mind
They tried to guide me, point me in the right direction
But I was hellbent on my own self destruction
Not with intent - that, I do know
But I never did realise when to take it slow
Always top gear, full speed ahead
And now the life and soul of me are dead
The motivation has gone - no ambition, no goal
All I am left with is an empty soul
And this gnaws away and eats at my heart
Which once felt full with life and spark
Only now do I realise that I was loved
So sad I never realised before I hit self destruct
