How can I keep this up,
Every night I wake up,
with a sweat soaked face,
And Emptiness in that place.
The hole is big and feels like Ice,
To think my love was taken twice.
I gave it to you each time with hope
and each time you left me to Mope
I would cry
and even want to die
I would lay around waiting to here your voice,
Each time I heard it I had a choice.
If I told you how I felt you wouldn't care,
If I held back you would smile and promise to be there.
So Every night I would ponder on which you really meant.
and Each night I would get a little more bent.
Bent on a hope that would never come,
Every night acting dumb
I wanted death but couldn't do it.
All because I cling to my soul
My life is now a hole,
for these sins I must atoll,
I need answers to questions I can't ask,
for fear that the truth is too much to take,
so every night I lie awake,
waiting for death to take,
this life I have grown to fear,
All because I wouldn't shed a Tear...
